what you see is not what you always get!!

Two months down and i am still wondering ....
what is it.. time or space or just a phase.
There is rarely ever a reason for one to not be content for blessings wrapping our otherwise strained lives but they find themselves being glared and ignored at their very origin .
It is also quite achefully amusing that sometimes to find the best recluse to our lonliness then best companion you find is lonliness and some more of it.
In my bouts of lonely escapades where more solitude was a better companion to my existing melancholy.. i thought of this..
the answer to which i seek to find.... it resonates in me every moment..

"What if a demon were to creep after you one night, in your loneliest loneliness, and say, 'This life which you live must be lived by you once again and innumerable times more; and every pain and joy and thought and sigh must come again to you, all in the same sequence. The eternal hourglass will again and again be turned and you with it, dust of the dust!' Would you throw yourself down and gnash your teeth and curse that demon? Or would you answer, 'Never have I heard anything more divine'?”

will i want to live my life just the same way and be conscious of what is to happen and yet not be able to turn it around or will excitement gush in my veins..

still thinking
ratin